bloody hot

its bloody hot..
bloody hot....
bloodily hot....

shit.

so going to fail so going to fail

i am so going to fail the catchment mgt paper
so going to..
so going to...
so GOING TO FAIL!!!!!

shitty-pie....

exam blues...

i hate it when the semester comes to an end... especially when the exams have to make their mark for a grand finale and bring up all the guilt & regrets i have for not paying enough attention in lectures and tutorials...

i think i have had more than the fair share of exams most people my age had, after going through 2 diplomas and a degree.. i wonder why this hadn't made me more prepared for exams...

this is the period when i will get IBS, tension headaches, backaches, shouldaches, hunger pangs, overwhelming drowsiness, gaming-addiction.... anything to keep me away from my notes...

sigh.. all my new year resolutions on working hard are gone.. all the promises of having to put in more effort "the next time" are long gone too... I can't even revive the initial drive and motivations i had for all these promises... sigh..

i am definitely not hardworking... i dont work smart too... if not i wouldnt be procrastinating and driving myself into this state of exam-depression....

ok, AED module taught me to face my fears!!! acknowledge my weaknesses!!!!

I AM A SUPER BIG FAT LAZY BUM WITH NO SENSE OF URGENCY FOR ANYTHING TILL THE LAST MINUTE!!!

LET ME BURY THE NOTES AND PLAY GAMES TILL THURSDAY MORNING AND CRAM JUST BEFORE STEPPING INTO THE EXAM HALL!!

pui~~~ i wish....

i forgot that i am a scaredy cat and "perfectionist" too...

bye bye.. time to hit the notes again..

literature review for my fwens

i'm feeling so damn sleepy and tired now even though its only 2pm in the afternoon...i just realised that my blog is all abt assg assg and more assg.. haha.. so boring.. my life seems to be full of assgs.. actually, i only have the inspiration to blog whenever i am doing assg because its a good way for me to get my mind off assg for awhile and alsoo...... to procrastinate.. whahahaha...

i can't wait for exams to be over.. then i will be free from student-life like finally.... however, i will miss the queen of archive xi shua shua and giammy after graduation... after having spent 2 years together (4 to be exact).. and even having slept for 2 weeks together (!!!!!)... i think it will be very weird not having them around anymore.. i won't even see giammy on saturdays in between classes during tuition anymore... and i will most probably be archived by xi shua shua soon.. who knows.. she might have set a timer for reformatting liao.. sobs. sobs..

sigh.. even though i don't want to.. i think i will miss life on campus... not the studying and mad assg rush parts.. but the happy moments like gossipping in between lessons, msn gossip sessions during tutorials, facebook kaypoh surfing sessions in gis lab, feasting in canteen and mac :D , passing time and doing assgs in library cafe, shopping in bookstore... even the gossips session on the bus and train home is fun... not to forget the fun time checking out boon lay new extension...

to make things worst, the new pioneer mrt station that will save us from the overcrowded bl station has to open only juz weeks b4 we graduate... and the hopefully is lao chang kee stall at the station isn't even open yet.. sigh...

hopefully we will be able to bring our very treasured friendship into the next phase of our life and not be forgotten or archived :D

if u two dare forget me...
giammy, i will camp outside ur house to take "flamingo" pictures of u and tag on facebook
xi shua shua, i will go outside ur house and shred onions~~

wahahahaahaahahaha!!!!

DEAD line (s)

One can be dead only once. Once u r dead, you can never be alive to die again.
Then why do I have so many deadlines?

School deadline(s)
15th Oct : 10,000 word thesis
17th Oct: AMX journal
2?th Oct: Resource Mgt Essay
23rd Oct: 351 group essay
24th Oct: Critical thinking presentation and group report
26th Oct: ACW reflection 4
30th Oct: ACW reflection 5
31st Oct: 351 group learning package
Critical thinking individual lesson package
ACW dramatisation + discusssion
12th Nov: Resource Mgt Exam
13th Nov: Multicultural Studies Exam
19th Nov: ACW 10-page Individual Paper

I don't know how I am going to go through all these... I feel dead already...

Personal Deadline(s)
15th Dec: Wedding photoshoot
Lose 5 kg (at the correct places)
Have thin arms for photoshoot
Make sure I have no pimples
Have fair skin

Although I have deadlines, I also have a reborn line :)

Reborn line(s)
Last day of tuition on 18th Oct!!!!
Crab feast with hubby after exams !!!!!!
Sleep till 3pm from 1st Nov to 3rd Nov!!!
Sleep till 3pm from 20th Nov to 29th Nov (Must wake up earlier to celebrate bday on 30th)

a tribute to nie yong tau hoo

its only week 3 of school and i am piled with countles deadlines and work to do... and to make matters worst... not only am i taking quite a few different modules from ah xian n cereal.. NIE YONG TAU HOO has closed down!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not being able to eat my comfort food during lunch made the hours i spent in nie quite unbearable...
the thought of being able to order kway teow soup with cuttle fish, tau pok, mushroom (yum!), bittergourd, fried eggplant, bai cai, seaweed chicken, "the thin rectangle piece of brown thing", meat ball and red chilli always motivate me to sit through boring lectures and tutorials... it is always exciting and adrenaline-rushing when i "run" to the canteen during lunch breaks, especially at around 130 to 2pm, because at that time there won't be much things left to pick so i will secretly pray that there will be at least 1 cuttle fish or mushroom left and the happiness & satisfaction i get when there's something left is enough to last me till my classes end.

the best time to eat yong tau hoo in nie is around 1030, because not many people will be at the canteen yet and the selection at the stall will be most complete. sometimes if the auntie is in a good mood, i can take up to 3 mushrooms. no matter how many items i take, the bowl of yong tau hoo + kway teow never go beyond $4!!! and u muz know hor... the fish meat they put inside the items are not just "surface" only lo.. there is quality in every item. and the soup..... so perfectly brewed that i can find no word that can describe its goodness without under-rating it. (ok, i am exaggerating abit)

these 3 weeks, i don't really look forward to having lunch in school anymore. even canteen A in ntu is boring to me... coz the q at macdonalds is always very long.... and the foodcourt is always packed.

yong tau hoo, i miss you.
you r the best thing that happened to me in nie (except knowing my pals of coz)

no matter where you go to, yong tau hoo mood swing auntie and actions very slow uncle, i wish u all the best in your future endeavours!!!!!

hooray for nie yong tau hoo!!!
hip hip , hooray!!!

Shun Bian post

I have to write a blog as part of assessment for a module. Since I have an entry on the portal already, I might as well also post it here huh. Yeah.. my blog has revived... shortly. .

Here it goes...

A Teacher is an Adventurer

Sheena’s adventurous journey into teaching...

My journey into choosing teaching as a career wasn’t straight-forward. Upon graduation from polytechnic with a dip in business info tech, I wasn’t sure if I want to pursue a career for the rest of my life in my field of study. I tried working in a translation company as a project manager for about half a year and the dull work routine almost drove me crazy. I knew then that a 9-5 job is not for me.

I went into direct sales, selling over-priced household appliances for close to a year. I got to roam about freely and could talk as much as I like during work and I loved that! However, after some time, I found no satisfaction and sense of purpose in selling things that might be of no use at all. During house visits, I found out that there are many children who have very little parental supervision and support in their schoolwork, especially in less well-to-do families. They can spend the whole evening watching television or playing with their friends at the park or playground. I was horrified when I saw a school workbook that is almost empty even though it was nearing the end of a semester. The first thing I thought of was: the teacher is terrible!!!!! Why isn’t she doing something to help the child????

On one of my cold calls, I got to know a young Chinese teacher who was teaching in a primary school. What my new found friend told me about teaching seemed very exciting and challenging so I decided to try for a place in NIE, with the silly vision of saving children from irresponsible and boring teachers (oops!).

Teaching never came across my mind till I met my teacher friend. My career aspirations include being a cartoonist, cartoon voice-over, zoo-keeper, storybook illustrator and story-teller. During my contract teaching stint, I found out that being a teacher can actually satisfy almost all of my career aspirations! I can read big books to children and pretend that I am a big bad wolf or an old man with croaky voice, decorate the classroom with drawings, teach the students how to make cut-out animals etc.. Without the usual workload of a full-time teacher, teaching was “superbly” enjoyable!! However, my teaching practicum experience gave me a real view of how a full-time teacher with a tight curriculum is like and I must admit that I was disillusioned. On nights when I have to stay up till the wee hours to prepare lesson plans and mark students’ work, I wished that I can strike lottery and pay off my bond.

Many of the students in my practicum school come from broken homes. It was my students who kept me going because many of them remind me of the children I met when I was doing sales. After knowing my students well, I felt the need and urge to make a difference in their lives. I feel very happy when I know that they look forward to coming to school. I am extremely proud of them when they show improvements in their work. I nearly cried when a boy confided in me about his abusive grandfather. To me, teaching is an adventure because there are many possibilities that I can make happen if I want to. There are many ups and downs in teaching due to the heavy workload and students from different background, but no path is perfectly straight and that’s why it’s challenging. Recalling why I want to teach at the different stages of my teaching career revived my passion for teaching at this point in my life. I want to equip myself with more skills, right attitudes and beliefs before I embark on my teaching adventure next year.

P.S so that no one will say “your teacher is terrible!!!” to my students :)