pre-exams syndromes

3 papers next week. 3 essay qns for each paper. 5 pages per answer.
will i be able to finish on time? will i be able to relate & put in wht i've learnt into each qn relevantly? will my critical thinking be sufficient and effective in that short period of time? will i GET A C??~~???!!!~~~

been getting the irritable bowel syndrome like everyday..
been sneezing everyday till my nose ran away..
been suicidal like ah xian..
been feeling cranky..

been skeptical of everything...
but then i remember what chriel mentioned in her blog, there is only days left till exams r over!!!!!!!!! i luv u chriel, for writing that!!!!!!!!!

Curiosity Kills The Cat

feeling kinda depressed..feeling like a cat...
my high level of inquisition got the better of me.. everytime..
but its natural for females to have a high level of inquisition & curiosity, right?
if there's something within reach that you can see.. wouldn't you like to know what it is?
mixed feelings. . . . hmm...

feeling like rubbish

Discuss the relationship of language and religion in relation to their geographical characteristics.
the above statement has been haunting me for 5 whole days.. ok, honestly, minus the hours of sleeping in late and procrastinating..
there're so many things to write about to fill up 2000 words.. and after jotting down the points that i wanna write, 2000 words seem too little..
the more points i wrote, the more i think that i am straying from the objective of the essay question. my focus is on Kenya in eastern africa, where the official language is english and the national language is swahilih. there is a wide range of religions with protestants being the majority. islam is also practiced due to diffusion from north africa which is near its border. . . . . so.. i am gonna use Kenya as my model to show how religions originate, r spread, r diffused, dissipate due to environmental factors, circulation, colonisation, ehh.. etc etc. and how language can help conserve and even disperse it.. and why certain languages and religions can't crystallise in a place due to it geographical location.. and then add in my own views.. then how they play an integral part in shaping culture of a place, can i also talk about cultural identity? .. can i also talk about economic development coz although kenya has got very fertile soil, the main thing they grow is luxury crop like tea, on land owned by european companies.. therefore they are living in poverty, lack of food, poor economic development.. all these because they rely too much on foreign investment.. hmm.. i am feeding seeds to the bees and collecting honey from the birds liao..
i think i am hopeless. . . .
ok.. enough of lamenting.. i pray and pray that i will be able to hand in something that contains 2000 words (plus minus 10) to wong tai chee on wednesday.........

ending of term break

today is the 2nd last day of the term break..

my term break is totally unproductive and wasted becoz i was sick for 4 days.. was in and out of a "semi-coma" with temperature wavering from 38.9 to 39.2 degrees from sunday to wednesday.. yes, i have fever again!!!! sigh.. and this time its due to a throat infection.. i think i have over-worked myself the week before, sleeping only 2-3 hours everyday to finish my assignments.. and why can't i finish my assignments in time??? --> coz my pea-size brain works too slowly..

i ended up with uncountable number of ulcers in my throat and on both sides of my tonsils.. so basically i can't sneeze, cough, talk loudly, eat, drink without wincing in pain..terrible hor.. how on earth did the ulcers get there? did i scratch my throat with the food that i ate??? hmm...

as a result of the fever, i didn't managed to do any work at all. i could only read the materials for the reflection when my head was clear.. and think of what to write, causing yet another bout of headache.. luckily my fever finally subsided and i was able to go to school on thursday to do my map in the lab.. then i felt so groggy when i finished coz i haven't got used to being up for so long..

Met up with shippy to go sign up for Boxercise (!!!) at the CC near our hse and we went for our first session today!! as i have not been exercising for about a hundred years, i found it really exhausting.. my muscles were aching and my hair was soaked with perspiration after merely 30 minutes (and we were in an air-conditioned dance studio!!!) boxercise is actually quite similar to kick-boxing. we did kicks, punches, jabs, crunches and push-ups... however, i like kick-boxing better, coz it is more rhythmatic and has a faster pace..
i feel so happy that i am starting to exercise again :) at least i have 1 hour of vigorous exercise every week so even if i don't jog or swim i won't feel so guilty... hahahaha..

now, i have to finish up my GIS technical report and my 1000 word reflection.. hopefully i can finish by tonight so that i do not have to stay up late on weekdays and end up falling sick again....... sigh...

To my small brain:
dear brainy,
please work hard tonight for me okie? i promise i will treat you to nice books and movies and brain boosters if you help me think of good ideas and points to complete my assignments.
love ya, sheena

stressed

i am feeling so stressed up now!!!!! arghhh~~
so many suay things happened to me over the last 2 weeks..
juz to name a few of my suayness: lost my concession card with 3 days worth of bus and train rides.. laptop crash which cost me 190 bucks to repair.. MOE messed up the 2.5k stipend i'm supposed to have received last wednesday and the bdcjhdbcecb personnel dept havent been replying to my mails for the past 5 days.. Haiz..

i think i am barely surviving my degree course..i feel so stressed up.. i can't write essays :~( i can think of many things to write and have many points to put in but I take a long long long long long time to put them in words and proper sentences that are rhetheorically correct and align with the question.. Haiz.. how am i gonna score in the exams at the end of the year that are essay-based???? i am in deep deep shit..
so what if i understand the content.. so what if i lOve geog.. if i can't write, i am nt gonna do well in the end..

feeling and depressed and suay.. sometimes i wonder whether i made the right choice in taking the crossover.. i guess i will only see what i reap after sowing for the next 2 years.. Haiz..

Updating for 2007 as at 20th Aug 2007

after being dormant for more than 8 months.. my blog is slowly regaining its life.. and coz i haven't been blogging for so long.. i am gonna give an update of my life from jan 2007 to today. so if u r feeling sleepy or feel like puking at the sight of words, please don read on.. hahahaha..
well well well.. let's see..
Jan 2007
- forgot what happened

Feb 2007
- issit CNY?

March 2007
- busy with NIE assignments?

March(?)or April to May 2007
- Practicum in G-primary.. practically killed myself again and again everyday.. squishing out every little drop of brainy juice there is in my head, forcing myself to fall sick only on weekends, sleeping an average of 3 4 hours everyday,in return for a 'pass' grade.. sickening right.. i shall bitch no more..
The good part:
i love my students.. they're angels with devil ears.. can be quite trying at times.. but deep down they r such good children.. each with their own unique character and strengths.. so even if i get a 'pass' grade, i think its worth it coz i had fun with them & i think they had fun with me (of coz la.. i'm so entertaining~!! hahaha) i learnt so much about life from these children.. especially when they tell me about their little life stories and even problems they have at home.. sigh.. i miss them..

June 2007
I went to taiwan~!!!!! ermm.. i had diarrhea everyday.. had to go to the toilet after every meal.. the food is terrible everyday except on the last day when we had a seafood buffet feast.. the night markets r not very clean.. the clothes not very nice.. the things not very cheap.. and i was kinda "forced-sales" into buying S$300+ worth of wild ling-zhi.. the long bus rides everyday gave me dizzy spells.. the hotel that they claimed was 5 stars was 5 stars 10 years ago and is still 5 stars now although nothing's been changed.. the supposed to be "hot spring" turned out to be a swimming pool of hot water.. their so-called drunken chicken that the tour-guide strongly recommended is like the poorest quality of hainanese chicken rice we have in sg.. sigh..
ok, now to the good parts.. haha.. the moral of this 2 paragraph is to teach you that there is always sunshine after the rain (too much of AAD105)..
The Good Parts~!!!!:
i went to Taroko National Park!!!! its actually a gorge filled with marble!!! ehh.. nono itsa mountain.. the long long mountain in the middle of Taiwan and the mountain is filled with marble and feicui and jade~!! i love the place coz i get to walk in the valleys and see the natural environment.. i saw real swallow caves on the cliffs, real waterfalls that appear in the middle of the mountain, rocks that are eroded by the flowing river until they look like a big fish, the watermarks on veryveryvery high rocks that were caused by the yearly floods.. i was so overwhelmed by the scenery and i could not get enough of the short 2 hours tour.. I MUST VISIT TAROKO NATIONAL PARK AGAIN!!!!
and i went to yeliu~~ its a coastal area where they have many rocks that are shaped by natural erosion caused by the rising tides and seawater.. i lurbbbedddddddd it!!
then i also went to gu gong~! ehh.. donno what its called in english coz everything was in mandarin.. its a museum containing all the artefacts from the different dynasties.. i got to see the real cabbage jade~~ lalalala~~ but not the mian shi jin pai (the tablet that can prevent u from being tekan by the bad concubines, eunuchs and officials.. and even the emperor cant kill u) coz the tablets are in the museum in China.. I MUST GO TO THE MUSEUM AGAIN!!!
these r the 3 places that i like most la.. the rest.. can do without..
oh ya.. the fruits are fantastic.. the mangoes they have in tw are actually fertilised with fresh milk!! and there's this real story that says that there was once when there was a flood and the seawater covered the mango fields which were almost ready for harvest (coz they grow the mangoes near the coast).. the farmer was devastated and he n his wife worked for days without sleep trying to save whatever that could be saved and also to prepare for the next harvest (so sad right?). the seawater covered the mango trees and was absorbed by the trees.. the fruits all turned from yelloow to black.. and coz the farmers were too busy, their children have nothing to eat.. so they ate the 'black' mangoes that were collected to be thrown away.. ahh haa~~~ this is the crux of the story!!! so the farmers came home finally and found out that their children were happily feasting on the supposedly bad mangoes.. and realised that the mangoes which have taken in sea water are exceptionally sweet.. sweeter than any mango they have ever tasted!! and they have been receiving orders all over the world for the black mangoes that they named black pearl ever since.. so nice right.. and they were not selfish at all.. they passed on the 'recipe' (?) to other farmers whom they think needed help and they prospered as well.. so touching right..
i think that unless one has experienced what its like being down, one can't really emphatise with another.. its thru one's experience that he/she learn to feel for and help another person who might be a stranger and share what he/she has willingly without selfish thoughts that the helpee might take advantage of him/her and climb over him/herself.. its also a test of moral values that those who received help don't repay it by taking advantage of the helper. hmm.. the taiwanese farmers live a very simple life and that's why they are able to do it.. imagine it in a developed city where everyone is competing with everybody else.. (go do reflections)


July 2007

- relief teaching in G-primary until i go back to NIE in aug..

Aug 2007
- taking bachelor of arts (geography).. year 2.5 .. still surviving.. abit overwhelmed with the coursework.. praying that i will be able to vomit out enough words for my essays.. loving geography as its the only subj i really like and feel that there is a purpose for studying.. the rest are nonsense la.. what physics what math..

update of the non-human beings at home
1 silky terrier, 1 siberian husky, 1 dwarf-rabbit, 3 terrapins, 1 indian-star tortoise, <10 goldfish and parrot fish..

who wants to adopt my 7-months old husky? hes cute and lovable but he needs a bigger space to run..

MY BLOG HAS REVIVED!!!!